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As the anniversary of Jamie’s passing approaches, my heart continues to become heavier and heavier with grief. In remembrance, I reflect on Jamie and I’s last full work week together and it brings warmth in my heart and a smile to my face.

Jamie’s last full work week was her best ever at SAS! Hmm, you may ask yourself “how can that be?” Well for starters, our boss was out the entire week on vacation, which meant we could come and go as we pleased.

Jamie didn’t have to rush in dropping off “The Adorables” and make it to work by 8:30am. Instead, she enjoyed her ride to school and work, stopped and picked up breakfast in Building C (egg white omelette) and casually walked into the office before 9am. Some days, she even had a Starbucks’ concoction in tow. Of course, the barista knew her order! Continue Reading →

She was a girl of Air and Fire
Of love and smiles and great Desire
I caught her on her way Uphill
Seeking dreams she would fulfill.

She had a ways to go she said,
She’d stop and stay awhile instead.
And for three years we laughed and sighed
“Where are my dreams?” she often cried.

Then off she flew from Coast to Coast
“To find my dreams!” she’d loudly boast.
To find the Path so right and true
To set her life aright, Anew.

And there he stood, her man of choice
To help her find her One True Voice.
Along came twins, so sweet and small
To fill the home with dearest Paul.

Then came another, with her Farewell
That angel whom we’d loved so well.
She left behind three babes so dear
To keep her dreams alive and near,

To show us all some hope in sorrow
That she lives on in their tomorrow.
And though our hearts are broken still
We smile at all her dreams fulfilled.

She’s only just a thought away
A memory of a sweeter day,
When Jamie Girl would laugh and dance,
And tilt her head and give a glance

Then rest her head upon our heart
To kiss our tears and then depart.
So, now and then I feel her wings
An angel’s song she often sings:

“Expand your life, your dreams and songs,
And find out where your heart belongs!
Be fearless in your deep Desire
And let yourself be Air and Fire!”

Love, Kennette and Barry

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Dear Jamie,

Last night I put a very overly tired baby Reagan to bed and as is the norm, I thought of you the whole time. As I was feeding Reags her bottle and rocking and singing to her, I stared up at the pink puffs on the ceiling and quietly cried thinking of you. I cried, like I do most nights that I put her to bed, thinking how proud you would be of this little girl; I think of the quotes on the wall that I had to put up without you; I think about how I hope that I put them up the way you wanted; I hope that the framed fabric pieces are hung in an arrangement you’d like; We still need to get a mirror with a white frame to go to the right of her crib, because that’s what you wanted; I wish I didn’t insist that you couldn’t see the bed skirt I was making until it was finished. I wish I at least showed you the fabric, because you would have loved it. The bed skirt on the other hand, well let’s just say that I clearly have not yet mastered the art of sewing. Continue Reading →

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The very first weekend of June was spent up in Philadelphia for Paul, Kat, Dan, Maureen, and The Adorables. To make things a little “easier,” we divided and conquered; Reagan rode up with Grandma and Grandpa and John and Larkin rode up with Kat and Paul. According to her grandparents, Reagan was beyond amazing for the entire car ride, even with the famously horrible DC traffic. John and Larkin were amazing in the car as well. Although, no matter how good they behave, managing two toddlers, especially two toddlers who are potty training for a 7 (or turned out 9) hour car ride gets quite exhausting. The kids talked about the big tunnel (through Baltimore) constantly, read books with Ki, colored in their coloring books, ate lunch/snacks, and when Ki and Paul needed a short break, they watched a kids music DVD, which turned out to be a life saver (although I think we had those songs stuck in our heads for weeks after the trip). Continue Reading →